Tears rolled down my cheeks for no reason...they just rolled down like they were seemed to be...is something wrong with me? well, this is the question that i do not even know myself...

having trapped in the room for almost everyday, doing the same routine everyday can make a person having depression...no one to chat with, to hear about your feelings and to share laughters and sadness....you had left nothing but just silence...

seeing someone that used to be my closest friend is not the part of my life anymore...it hurts so much that i could not even imagine...my heart was being teared apart thinking of that everytime...maybe i should keep all my feelings on my own and let everyone beside me thinking that im living a happy life...this is better than mumbling the same old problem with them which i guess they were already pissed off with it hearing all over again...

i feel that im now a body without soul...just sitting on the same old place everyday and repeating what i have to do everyday...im kinda impressed of myself, that i can still holding on...but, happiness is not my guest anymore...did not really remembered the time when i used to be happy...

what i need is just a sincere friend, to be with me whenever i need...i do not even know who i should talk to when i really feel bad or when i need someone to talk to...its kinda pathetic right? i know i still have friends who care for me, but i really do not know who i should turn up to when im alone and helpless...

i had changed...not the person that i used to be anymore...the cheerful and happy me, had been vanished since i do not know exactly when...

going home soon, hope i can find back the missing parts of me...at least a little...because home is the best place to go when you are lost~~~ and i really miss all of them at home so much...