emoooooo

had been thinking alot lately...too many sad things happen around, made me became so emo and tears kept rolling down uncontrollably...i kept thinking about death...the accident that happened to my cousins and the chung ling boys that were drown...life is so fragile that i can't even imagine, and unpredictable...we do not know what will happen to us next...what we can do is to live everyday as our last, fill our day with happiness and live meaningfully...but im such a negative person, kept thinking of 'what if ?'...i know that im way too much to think it that way but i just do not have so much confident on my own...im afraid of disappointing people who care for me...things that happen to me lately had proven me a loser and im beaten down...the failure i had, makes me lose all my confident and passion in life...i know i should not be beaten up and life is full with ups and downs...but sometimes when i was alone, those thoughts will haunt me and i just could not help it~~~

im not good in solving problems, especially when it comes to my personal matters...i do deserve a slap for all those crap...i know~ but i really can't help it sometimes...will try to think positively...all i need is a friend to motivate and care for me and i know that i have one beside me, who will always be there for me whenever i feel down...

i promised myself...i will try my best to live everyday as meaningful as i can...want to let all my family and friends know how much i love them and how grateful i am to have them in my life~ will live my life with no regrets!!!

** HUGS ** for everyone that i love!!! all of you meant a lot to me and thank you for having me a part of your lives too!!!